People talk about meditation and the like - truly being with one's surroundings and senses...all that jazz. There is a lot to be said for mindfulness. I like to think I am generally mindful, but know that usually...I am not. How do I know? Because the moments when I realize I am completely in the now, overwhelmed by a beautiful sensory overload, completely aware of every movement and moment around me, I am in simultaneously in awe and at peace. And in those moments, I realize I don't feel this way very often.
When I think about it, I have a really hard time just sitting still and being okay with the fact that I am sitting still. Even if I can't control the random bouncing of my legs or the sporadic twitch in my left eye, it is the moments when I am still enough to be conscious of my body and my thoughts that I really become aware of where I'm at.
Welp, this is where I sit...today:
- I started this post by channeling Ron Swanson:
(I obviously cleaned it up a little bit since) |
- The past few weeks have been a whirlwind. First my apartment flooded, was torn up, and then speckled with an army of heavy duty fans. Thankfully I had a trip to Boston planned and was able to escape. I spent five days in Beantown right after giving my two weeks notice. I arrived home last night, will spend this week packing and cleaning, and then trek back to the wonderful bubble that is State College where I will dog sit for the 'rents while they take a much needed vacation...and then I will nestle into my new apartment. As I sit here, I recognize that the feeling of being in limbo recently is completely appropriate. I don't feel like I still live in my current apartment...I don't feel like I still work at my current job...I don't live in my new apartment yet...and I don't work at my new job yet. Jack be limbo, Jack be quick....
- I have now listened to the same album on repeat 3 times today - not on purpose, but because Spotify has kindly started it over...and over and over without me realizing.
- Since I have been "sitting here," the piece of hair that had been tirelessly clutching the middle of my back has been successfully located and removed. I realized that I had been blindly swatting myself, shrugging, twitching, itching, all while focusing on something else. I knew I was uncomfortable (how could I not have? I was literally smacking myself like I was doing some sort of weird breakdance move), but I didn't stop to actually do something about it until now. Mission accomplished!
- I drank my entire 24oz bottle of water. This is huge for me. I am a generally dehydrated human being. I fill myself with coffee and beer and run out every ounce of sweat in my body. Methinks that being more mindful of my water consumption is a wise decision. And now, as a result, I am aware that I have to go to the bathroom. The human body is an amazingly predicable creature (when it is not being unpredictable).
- If I am being an honest runner, this is how I feel about my toenails at this point:
(I feel similarly about mustaches) |
- I just had a moment. I remembered that I watched the season finale of The Bachelorette last night. I have never watched the show before, but when I turned my TV on at 8pm and it was already on ABC, did I switch it? Nope. 3 hours (and ~300 "what the's?" later) I found myself smiling. Giggling to myself as if I'd just gotten away with something. So much ugly crying. It was so absolutely terrible that I enjoyed it - thoroughly. And I now understand all of the "Juan Pablo" chatter.
(apparently he is yodeling or something?) |
I also found this gem of a BuzzFeed article today, and thank goodness I was not playing this game while watching the finale, because there would have been no hope. And finally, I really think, despite having seen only one episode, that this season could be made into a terrible made for TV movie called "Des Misérables."
So yeah. I watched The Bachelorette. And I'm okay with it.
- If I put on my Burt's Bees chap stick and focus on it for the next few minutes, I can literally feel the oils seeping into the crevices of my lips, permeating the cracks and tingling my skin. It's a pretty intense yet teeny tiny phenomenon. It's kind of like feeling yourself swallow food. You don't notice it until you actively notice it. It's kind of awesome.
- And finally, I just watched this video and am speechless. Rethinking the Bucket List: "Stop bullshitting."
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